It Begins...

Expressions

It Begins...

Sunbird By RJC

DYING INSIDE

Oh sullen Heaven

Why must you weep?

You should be brightly blue.

Instead your tears fall down as rain

Into my heart they soak through.

Did one of your children

So fair and mild

Lose themselves

To the winds so wild?

Oh darkened clouds

Why do you thunder?

You should be billowy white.

Instead you are black and threatening

Lightning flashing in my night.

Did you lose a loved one---

Your only friend

Unto death

Yearning for the end?

Oh soaking rain

Why are you flooding?

You should make the flowers grow.

Instead you are drowning all my life

Deep within your deadly flow.

Could it be I'm depressed,

Fallen inside,

Dying slow,

With nowhere to hide?

RJC 4-30-99

Clouds By RJC 6-10-06

DARK WORLD

My world is darkly gray.

It is all shadows in my day.

My world is darkly gray.

It is all shadows in my day.

Wonder why I delay?

It is so very hard to stay. To stay. To stay.

You just don't know the ease,

In which my desire would could be pleased.

I can't rise from my knees,

The cries of pain... my soul is squeezed.

The world is shadowy dead.

It is all tainted... filled with dread.

The world is shadowy dead.

It is all tainted... filled with dread.

I cannot feel the light.

The sun is hidden from my sight. My sight. My sight.

Don't you care for my life?

I ask amid my endless strife.

Plunge in the bloody knife.

My insides quiver for my wife.

My world is painful blue.

A most disgustung shade of hue.

My world is painful blue.

A most disgusting shade of hue.

Wonder why it is true?

Happiness comes so easy for you. For you. For you.

I long to end my days.

Yet my wondering mind delays.

Drifting in endless haze,

My being rots... in pain it stays.

RJC 2-19-97

Blue Eye By RJC 1-29-05

A FLEA'S TEAR

There is a tear

On the cheek of tomorrow,

Flowing into the valley of shame.

I cry unto the heavens

All my sorrow,

No one knows my name.

There is a stone

In the brook of Poseidon,

Slipping into the canyon of glee.

I give unto the angels

All my wisdom,

God does not know me.

There is a flea

On the dog of lucifer,

Biting upon the sinews of pain.

I stare into the hellfires

Of my tutor,

He ignites my flame.

RJC 5-10-98

Sunset By RJC

HEART THUNDER

Sweeping fears assail my soul.

Completing their damaging toll.

Deadly billows around me roll.

Accomplishing their final goal.

Drift down.

Ever down.

Swiftly down.

Finally down.

Lonely tears dampen my cheeks.

These few hours, they seem like weeks.

Trembling tongue, how useless it speaks.

My quivering heart, thunder breaks.

Glowing.

Pain growing.

Life flowing.

At last knowing.

RJC 7-24-96

Night Light By RJC

DARK

Everything is black in my world.

I long to crush out a flower's radiant petals.

I yearn to muffle an infant's soft cooing.

I wish to bathe in the blood of a million needles.

There is nothing but darkness where I reside.

I hope for an end to this daily madness.

I desire the cold solemn stillness of eversleep.

I crave the night of neverending darkness.

RJC 2-08-96