A Little Deeper

Expressions

A Little Deeper

Deep Sea By RJC 6-12-04

DEEPEST SEA

I'm searching for darkness

In the deepest sea

Praying for the waters

To cover me

Found addiction instead of peace

At the end of the ride

Temptation and complication

Came in with the tide

I'm looking for release

In a much truer tree

Laughing as the pain

Is killing me

Got lovely torture with my bliss

As my life was ending

Destruction and damnation

Are slowly blending

I'm seeking for a god

In the depths of Hell

Darkly lost my soul

Has swiftly fell

Saw demons flirting with angels

As Heaven was burned up

Mutilation and desecration

Filled my bitter cup

I'm searching for darkness

In the deepest sea

Praying for the waters

To cover me

RJC July 28, 1995

GENTLE AGGRESSION

Jagged oppression.

Dismal digression.

I would have cried.

I should have cried.

Enemies are lovers.

Quiet succession.

Overt suppression.

I would have lied.

I should have lied.

Criminals are brothers.

Evil suggestion.

Fearsome expression.

Maybe I would hide.

Maybe I should hide.

Terrified are others.

Gentle aggression.

Lonely confession.

I would have died.

I should have died.

Murderers are mothers.

RJC October 21, 1998

SURRENDER

I have drawn a conclusion

From my everlasting strife

No matter what I cling to

I'll still lose my life

Days and nights without end

Cut into my soul

Pouring out the contents

While my extremities grow cold

I feel worthless to myself and

My hands know not fruit

I have given up my spirit

For a worthless pursuit

Struggling with angels and

Demons within my mind

It is hopeless; I surrender

To the darkness sweet sublime

RJC March 8, 1995

SLAVE

I exist as a prisoner

Unto myself...

In bondage to a life I

Cannot escape---

Hoping one morning to awake.

The chains still bind

My captive soul,

In a grip of death

Forever strong.

I must endure the torment alone.

Will damnation be my Final reward,

When I leave this life

So cruel?

I am the ultimate fool.

RJC January 5, 1995